Wed, Jul. 30th, 2008, 11:02 pm
i bought stacker2 and no side effects for bad... i am so happy on them.
tomorrow.. yellow apple. the whole day.
wake up.. take a stacker2 gym for 2 hours.
get home around 1ish. whateverrrr
eat an apple sometime that day than another stacker 2
than later on another stacker2. wootwoot.
im so excited for results
u guys i have a month and some what days to look absoultely the best.
school starts than and i dont want to look huge. ughhh
im sticking to my one apple a day plan. it worked last time
and it will work again and now using diet pills.. i will have better
results i hope! wootwooot. lets hope!
think thin. b/c ve fuckedd up way to much
APPLE DIET. yayy =)
Tue, Jul. 29th, 2008, 12:04 am
anyone try stacker2 ephedra free. i hope its not like a laxative because im going to dorney tomorow
and the car ride wont be so great. nor the trip. good luck to me.
anyone want to let me know
Mon, Jul. 28th, 2008, 02:28 pm
so the veggie dier didnt work. it just makes u hungry after 30 minutes. i think when i was eatin one apple a day i was doin so much better. im doing that again once my mom brings home apples. which i will not ask because i dont want to eat anyways. so yeah ill wait til she ask me. and 2nd the 1,3,5 diet didnt work. i blew that one. laxatives are like my bestfriend right now. the 1,3,5 diet once u eat u just cant fuckin stop or wait. its my fuckin control habits. ti was good. now it sucks
but im gettin back on that track again. which im excited about.
im on good diet pills now. this is a new week and a new day. i will be thin and my control habits will work
because if it dont. im ready to kil myself.
Fri, Jul. 25th, 2008, 01:01 pm
i am a failure. fuck my life. i am going to be thin. thinnnnnnn. bone thin. i dont care. today is my last fuckin day of binging i swear on my life. im so pissed off at myself , i dont even no how to explain this and i really dont want to talk about it. im so sad. today is my last day. LAST day. i swear thats all im going to say. thank gosh it wont have all of an effect. i have diet pills and laxatives and the sake of throwing up. im so bloated from these lax. i feel gross. im breaking out from the diet pills. im so sad. tonight i am finshing my maximum lax. i have 6 left? or 8 i forgot but i mean they really do the job good. anyways.i tried that stupid 1,3,5 diet and whenever i take in food i feel like i cant stop eating. so i just eat and eat and eat. well IM JUST STICKING TO ONE MEAL A DAY OR EITHER VEGGIES OR SALAD. and thats it. im so madddddddd. starting tomorrow. because today im taking the rest of my lax. so yeah. ok i am gonna go. im to upset. i dont want to share my fat fuckin stories. i feel huge thats y. i feel huge and fat. and u dont need to hear how fat i am. ugh. fuck my life.
i swear i will never binge again. everrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Tue, Jul. 22nd, 2008, 12:45 pm
yesturday was good. i had just steamed veggies. not a lot. i had diet pepsi, this flavored water o cals also. 2 cups of coffee
and water and diet pills. :] iw asnt even hungry when i ate but once again im not fasting because i dnt want to gain the weight back
and yada yada. today i dont know whats up for food. but obv nothing like special. either steamed vggies at the mall or at home
i rather eat home because i know the caloriesss. but i forgot what i was gonna say!!
hmm. OH YEAHHH. laxatives make u bloat for like a week. urggg. i feel huge. its only been a day since not takin them today will be 2 days.
fuck i feel like a whale.. anyone know how to unbloat hahaha... ? let me know please. ok everyone have a good day. xox
ill be back later on because boyfriend will be with me<3
i have one obsession and that is this. this control of what i put in my mouth
people say its ana talking in my head but no it's me. I WANT TO DO THIS
ana is just a motivator. for now. til it gets worse.
Mon, Jul. 21st, 2008, 08:39 pm
i hate my mom. hate her.
Sun, Jul. 20th, 2008, 10:48 pm
i will be thin. NOT THING. tiny.
im disgusting. urg. yuck. i dont even like to shower anymore
because when i look at myself i feel so fat and gross.
but i have to shower.
TINY = PERFECTION. seriously starving myself.
i just dont fucking care anymore what anyone has to say
threaten me, tell my mom. oh fuckin well
it will just make it easier on me so i wont have to hide it anymore
ill just deny food. duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i want to never eat again. and i will til i NEED to.
Sun, Jul. 20th, 2008, 10:16 pm
i feel like im dying. i ate veggies today but i really wanted to fast but mama knew i was sick... even tho i was sick from lax. haha so she fed me some veggies. wasnt bad but still i wanted to fuckin fast. since shes at work tomorow. im fasting :] im excited. i feel like shit right now i took 15 lax the whole day and 15 yesturday. this morning i woke up and took 5 than later when my mom fed me veggies.. i took 10 after. i dont think that was a good idea, well it doesnt feel like a good idea. =[ but i will get everything out. detox myself than fast all day tomorrow. and tuesday im going to the city so thats plenty of walking. yay. i might just get coffee no food. depends on how i feel even tho i dont want food. :] ill prob fast tuesday too. anyways these lax are getting to me. i have to go rest or it wont be good at all. it also says kidney desease on the box... well i have bad kidneys to begin with and 2nd they are starting to hurt... yikes. i should lay off the lax. which i will because im not eatin anything and if i do... even tho i dont want to and 2nd its just gonna be a small amount of raw veggies not a whole plate or whatever. but i really really want to try the chocolate lax. well not anytime soon because im starving myself. i hate food and i can not eat for weeks at a time. so whateverr.
o and i know weed makes u hungry but. it doesnt make me hungry for some reason and i researched that if u smoke weed and dont eat after.
it burns your foood. YES. im so trying it lmao. if im still alive by tomorrow with my laxatives abuse.
Sun, Jul. 20th, 2008, 01:30 pm
i really hate how people on here say i will busy myself so i dont go in the kitchen... if u have a real eating disorder .. u can sit there and watch ppl eat and smell that damn disgusting food and still not want it. i can sit in my kitchen all day long and not eat it. that makes me sooo mad, does anyone agree?!!
and i hate how people cant get away without eating dinner. its so easy say u dont feel good or u dont like it.
a real ana.mia can get out of any kind of meal in no time. but if your parents no u havent eating all day than thats a different story.
than i can understand. than u either eat in ur room b.c u say u dont feel good and just hide it and throw it out or give it to the dog. or animal.
if they still want u down there to eat. eat it... real fast and throw it up and take laxatives after
or eat it and if u dont want to throw it up.. than just take laxatives adn take mad water and shit. duh
Sat, Jul. 19th, 2008, 11:44 pm
and i suck at remembering things. yikes.